Another Day of Madness

Another Day of Madness Indeed.

To mention my last few weeks on this beautiful, but otherwise warm day on November 29th would be needing more than a few pages to descirbe.

The dramatic intensity of school, stress and homework nevertheless intrudes into my life because it is an inevitable thing to happen to one's self.

My outlining for AP History is among the most tedious and myself not wanting to finish it kind of assignment. Outlining isn't hard it's just outlinging 20 pages...and from a text book that could be used as a weight for a bodybuilder, like my backpack. The horrors of lifting such things daily--heh no wonder my back aches and arches into an unnatural form. We need motorized backpack scooters that automatically follow the user. Such an invention would be worthy of my money. ^_^

Also, I've decided because of all the future and present turmoil that drama just interferes with my future life. Yes it's a wonderful class but it has nothing to do with my "future" journailsm career. As of now after the forever long decision I decided that when the year is halfway done I want to switch out of drama and into the photography class. To count how many times I've spoken with my Guidance Counselor of all the switches, talks of college, worries, and small talk would be an infinite number. I'll never stop talking to him because my mind is rushing as well as my parents for the straight road to college and a nice one in my state.

Being a teenager in high school is like a fish with a shark. Stress....stress...stress...and the possibility of being eaten up by the world at any moment. A wonderful statement.

There's one thing that gets me through this all...ok mabe more than one thing---my comforter, my friends and the mall once again saves me fom all the headaches, and further stress from school. And being a natural stresser and worrier this only heightens the intense pain and worry which makes me forget everything else. This is why my memory or anyone's else in their adoloscent years can forget things so easily.

The familar saying, "You wouldn't have forgotten if it was important to you," saying is a familiar term for me in my household. Only there's one problem to that. If the parent holds school, grades, and homework being done and the future educational stuff dearly while the student olds everythign else not in the same degree like shopping as the parents do then conflict occurs. Only for the student you have to juggle the schedule and important and least important things with you. If I'm juggling 20 things like homework, college(dual-enrollment), shopping, spending time with friends and etc. it's no wonder that one thing falls to the ground and something is shoved into its place. My memory does not upgrade or improve like a computer's and I wish it did. I'd upgrade it to 3 gb instead of being in the MB mode.

Yup so basically I am a juggling the world on this scrawny body of mine. Heh...hygiene is even hard to think of at times because I'm thinking of a billion things to do at once.

So besides keeping one teacher the same all this year I have just managed to keep up with homework and whatever else. Phew...